This post is in response to some of the current threads that I've been reading through. It's also partially due to the fact that I haven't REALLY talked to you guys in a while.
Just a forewarning: This will be a very long post. Think, "Wall of Text" kind of big. Those of you who don't have the patience or attention span for it, please don't read it or even respond to it with one of those typical, "too long" posts. Please. Those of you who are interested or care to show enough respect to me, I thank you for reading all the way through.
First of all, I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I haven't been around for quite some time. I haven't talked directly to many of you for just about as long as that. For this, I am deeply sorry. It's not that I don't like you guys anymore, or even that I am ignoring you. I promise. I still love you all, and I still wish to hear that you are all well.
Next, I'd just like to say that I am NOT leaving the clan. I still wear the clan tag. I may not be on Steam very much these days, but I do still try to represent. Even though I'm not on very much, I think that's no reason whatsoever for me to resign. If anything, I'd like my membership to continue for as long as we exist. And even if .:Splak| eventually fades, I'd like to consider myself a veteran of this clan, and nothing less than that.
This post is majorly to show my support for the clan. .:Splak| is an amazing online community. I've always felt that the people in this clan had a very special connection. Even if some relationships weren't entirely stable throughout the years, I'd like to think that the reason why is that we valued our connections so highly that anyone who didn't share that with us inside the clan didn't belong there. Call it a sort of overly-protective wolf pack. Anyways, my point is that .:Splak| is an extremely unique, valuable, and wonderful community that is absolutely irreplaceable. And I, for one, refuse to ever let go of this wonderful experience that I have had with all of you.
I must say, I do miss all of you. Dearly.
Next, just let me say that I will try to explain myself for my absence in the server, but it will mostly consist of excuses. I do realize this fact, and I do apologize.
I've just been so fucking busy. Life rushed directly at my face with the speed of lightning the moment I turned 18. I'm 19, now, and I'll be turning over my second decade very soon. It's all very sudden, and quite frankly, I'm still figuring out how to deal with it all. It seems like just yesterday I was a freshman at a new highschool after moving to a new area. I was standing upon a hill, saying to myself, "Time seems to go slowly. However, I know that in a little less than 4 years, I'll be standing on this hill again. I'll be telling myself about how quickly it has gone, and I'll be graduating." Well, this became very true in a way. I graduated before I even knew it. I didn't stand on that hill, however, to tell myself all about it. That hill had been leveled and turned into a parking lot. A way to signify the changing over the years, if you will indulge me on a bit of whimsical internal symbolism.
I've since been at college. Well, even then, it's summer time and I've already completed my first year. Where did it go? I remember it, but I don't remember how I got back to this house of mine. How did it go so fast? It just yesterday that I was standing on the grass outside of my dorm, looking at all of the weird kids. And it was just yesterday that I was staring at that girl who was sleeping on the couch in the lobby like she was weird. And thinking that those kids who were fencing outside were weird. And that kid with the notebook was too snobby. And that kid with the red hair was such a sexist. And it was just yesterday that all of us were becoming best friends. Pushing one another into the snow. Going to the mall. Staying up until the sun rose, and then going to bed until it fell. Playing video games in the lobby, going to breakfast at 7, taking an exam at 11, and doing it all over again. It was just yesterday that the snow melted and we were all sliding on our slick shoes down the wet pavement. It was just yesterday where we lying on the grass, letting the sun bare down on us. It was just yesterday we said good bye. It was just yesterday where I realized, none of that was yesterday.
I'm going to have to double post, I think, in order to continue. Yes, it's true, I'm not done.
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